Who am I really?

Who am I? What makes me the person who I am today? Might I for the first time start this essay attain by saying that I loathe these tell me about yourself type assignments. For me they seem to take an eternity to self evaluate and right It down and not to take down having to blemish out any of the more fun details. But you seem to be a re aloney good teacher and If you were willing to share more or less secrets of your past to the shape, then It only feels right to share some of mine with you.So here it goes . My name is Xavier Nathaniel ( I never learned how to spell my middle name) lunar and I was born on swept 26, 1995 in down town fort worth . My mom was super young when she had me so my early flavor was spent at home with my grandma as my m another(prenominal) tried to finish school. While living with my grandma I spent a parcel of time with my uncles (they were still in high school) watching them play delineation games, going to movies, etc. But then I finally made frien ds with the neighbour kid and his older brother.After a go I began to palpablely trust them and hangout with them ore often but one day I got into a misfortune with the older brother and it left me pretty bucked up In the head. So by the time my mom finished school I was going Into first grade and after the things that happen with the neighbor kid I was left feeling emasculated and this caused me to feel really left out with all the other boys In my class. So when they started to pick on me old get really angry and fight them Welch eventually led to me going into anger management classes.All the while me and my mother lived within a church but by the time I was in Ruth grade she and this guy she met within the church move away from there and move into the outskirts of down town fort worth. At first there relationship was pretty solid they never yelled at each other or argued . And personally I loved the guy , at the time my father was in prison so I never really got to meet him , but the guy (Jon) treated me like his son wed spend time together watch t. V , played video games, and even talked about girls who I liked in school.But after awhile things between him and my mom were getting really bad they were fighting and arguing all the time. Getting into literal fist fights and what not . Come to find out In the future he was coke addict. So they stayed In this on and off roller coaster of a marriage up until last week. But when I was younger all there crap took bait of a toll on me. I was again always bitter and angry and plus hitting puberty wasnt too fun either. School offered no sanctuary. Every day I was constantly ridiculed and picked on .One day after Jon kicked my mom, his 2 kids and I out of his house , I had finally gotten fed up with all he lot bucking with me so again I had gotten into a string of fights But this time no body really cared eventually the kids left me alone , and my mom was assay to make the best of a Shiite situation so there wa snt much attention offered there . At that time I didnt have to many real friends and the friends I did have didnt really feel like I was apart of there group . That left me feeling in a pretty marked-up state so I started cutting myself.And I know this sounds kind of morbid but it was always a leisure to feel the sharp line of those late nights, as the endorphins rushed threw my body everything felt Like It was going to be alright . Things that make me the individual who I am today and I doubt there even relevant anymore. The person who sits in your class room is a person who has gotten over his past life and now I strive to make what ever future I have to be better for myself . I have learned a lot threw all the things do in gone on in my life, some I wish I didnt have to learn so early but thats life .Vive learned to in truth forgive the people that ring me , I learned push on in life even when things are going bad, vive learned that to truly be happy in life you have to have some sort of respect for yourself and love the person who you are. And IM still learning new things about myself or life in general everyday and I hope I continue to learn. =) and IM sorry for acting like a brat in your class youre a really cool teacher who deserves to be treated better . But its something that IM working on, theres always room for improvement you know . But hopefully this was what you were looking for, sorry if it seems rushed.